I am not Sarah.

8am, the streets are still empty.

2011-12-08T08:17:00.001+02:00

At times like this the urge to write comes. These few days I thought of writing in my diary, but there never seem to be the right moment. I have this weird believe that to write, I need some time alone. But being alone isn't a good option.

This time off, I too use it to re-sort my thoughts. The never ending battle, my darkest fears. Going down the lane, amidst the tears, I found a reason to smile. I couldn't help wondering if these sentiments means something to you too.

The first time I saw you. I basically stereotyped you by your taste in shoes. Then there was the first time we met. You basically put on a cool act, yet, later that night you admitted you spend the whole time looking for my profile. We hit things off well, weirdly with our interest in shoes. You started walking me to class, and on my birthday you followed me around like a wet puppy, wishing me 'Happy Birthday Sarah' every five seconds. I remember waking up to fbchats asking if I'm going to class, and if I don't I'll get another chat after class.

Then the once a day trend starts. Everynight, without fail, before bed. The daily chats. Being a girl, I'm very particular about starting a conversation. After a month or two, I started waiting for midnight to come, it became my favorite time of the day. Some nights, at the stroke of twelve, I would be anxious, and if you're late I would curl up and make myself sleep, but automatically wake up to see your chat there.

Going to class became an event. From wearing pyjamas everywhere, I'd bother to dress up. There's the moment when you enter the lecture hall and your eyes starts scouting for me. Sometimes for kicks I'd pretend I didn't notice, or I'll sit in a midst of crowd. You never took your eyes off me untill I look back, and you'll wave hello. After that the teasing questionare starts. The silly questions when I was suddenly in Talkha after class.

We started hanging out in the courtyard after class, and then outside class. At one point, we end our daily chat with 'see you tomorrow'. Its amazing how we will be drawn to each other; seperating into different groups yet we look out for each other and then you always come, like its accidental. It's foolproof that only our real close friends can notice it.

I begin to believe when Mizah said you liked me, yet I never realize I too was falling for you. You started showing little things that shows how much you care. Winter came and I went back home. I somehow believed that we will fall apart. But apparently we work better with distance. The revolution scares me, and I remember when the line came back the first you said was 'When they cut off the line, all I wished for is for them to at least let me say goodnight to you'. By then I was sure aboutyour feelings. and somehow after I came back, things takes its course. It wasnt easy, but I've never felt so happy.

Many quarrels of our unsured feelings, yet the happy part is just blissful. The was this one time we were not okay for a week, and you came to see me, just like that everything's okay. One day, you bought me ice cream just because I mentioned in passing that I'm craving for them. You dissapeared to photocopy and came back with ice cream in the backpacks. MGT was an excuse to see each other every night. without fail, you will appear at the studio, even for 5mins. That became a thing, you will appear wherever I am, and I find it extremely sweet. Just out of the blue, you appear at the door.

The you confessed to me. That day you sat beside me in class, and just few days before, you randomly bbm me at random times, just because. It was our last class for the semester, you went back and just an hour later it came pouring. I never thought, knowing and hearing would make such difference. I have to admit I freaked out. I stared at the screen for ages, speechless. I was over the moon.

Then well everything after that is just, heh, go figure. Your birthday came, how I freaked out coz everyone was pressuring me. You came to Malaysia, just two weeks after I went back, it was so much fun, indescribable happiness. I remember how sad we both were when I had to leave for Saudi, you asked me wy cant I just stay. Yet again, with only one week together thoughout summer, the distance brought us closer, and when I came back in September, you were in disbelief, you kept saying how you cant believe how I was thousand of miles apart and now I'm 5mins away. The first few days back seems like a dream to me, but your presence makes up for it.

Eversince, we became more stable. The episodes have longer reoccurance periods, and more happy and sweet moments. I speaking for myself, the feelings changes, it means more. I became accustomes to your quirks, and daily rants. How silly things spoils your appetite, and it bugs you since you work so hard to gain weight. Eversince I teased you about being a bony walking skeleton you became obsessed with the gym. I remembered when you finally reached the big six-oh. As corny as it sounds, I still look forward for the next day. For these silly moments, and gazillion more unwritten ones, is what kept me going though moments of hardship.

This is the first time ever, of writing it down. Something good happened last night. It made my heart smile. Because of things like this, I believe in God's miracles are real. Ahmed's (and mine) belief in faith too, helps us in a long run. Have a good day sweethearts.

The lovebirds

2011-11-27T12:55:00.002+02:00

Their surprise party. Aren't they so sweet? ♥

I cant find my diary, excuse me.

2011-11-04T11:45:00.002+02:00

Weirdly I've yet come across that feeling that I want to write. From time to time I would scribble here and there on various notebooks. Depending on the occasion, usually for moments I wish to re-lived. I've decided, today I'm gonna ramble. Do excuse me.

I've turned from a writer to someone with no words. Drastic? Maybe. I found the beauty of unspeakable words through photos. Everytime I catch up with Hilwa, she would mention to my old posts back in 2008, before everyone left, says she. We then would talk about our days together. Up to the silliest details. I miss you girls terribly.

Lately I've been reminiscing through photos. it seems that I've pushed aside many memories. Because it hurts. Funny thing was, few days back Ahmed came to me saying his life is filled with unexpected events to ruin his supposedly happy times. And its just frustrating and how it effects the rest of the upcoming days. I then shared with him this thing I did since I broke up with K. To live by the day. Waking up every morning and finding something to be happy with. Take it bit by bit. After a while you dont have to try, your brain's accustomed to it. Hence my memory lapse on certain things.

Life's been good lately. Not on all aspects, but I shall not be unthankful and keep complaining. I have reasons to be happy and thankful. On certain things, I'm very much contented, have things to look forward to. I'd like to write all the reasons for my contentment, but I'll save it for my butterfly notebook.

My sister just graduated and is sitting for her SPM. We're finally moving near Tokche's. There's a new addition to the family, Anas bananas (well he turned one a month ago, still!). There's a He that gives my heart weird flips. Mom and Dad. How I actually like being in Egypt now. The forever by my side girlfriends.

There's so much thoughts stored in my head. Sadness, frustration, anger, happiness and merely unimportant things I'd like to get them out. Everytime I type I will press the backspace key. It's not spring cleaning time yet I guess. Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

Sorry for the lack of updates.

2011-10-02T16:09:00.001+02:00

Lately have been updating on my tumblr. You can read em there!

BBQ Lunch: Bafi's and Tlong's Birthday

2011-07-17T13:38:00.003+02:00

Satuday July 16th, 2011, Ayah Cik's, Bkt Jelutong

Shots: Canon EOS 7D, with 24-105 mm

Summer hols, the first 2 weeks

2011-07-17T13:10:00.006+02:00

The Journey Home

First day home, Ain's Orchestra

Lunch with mother, 2nd day

Random moment with families

Sundays in Seremban

Arsenal Days!

1) Training

2) Arsenal vs Malaysia XI

Friday night dinner with ze girls, Tony Romas, Pavi. Plus, coffee afterwards.

July 3rd - July 12th, 2011, Everywhere!

Shots: Canon EOS 400D/ 7D/ Mark 5D, with 50/ 15-85/ 24-105/ 70-200 mm

Yousry's day.

2011-07-04T15:08:00.003+02:00

After Ahmed's surprise in the club. 5mins after we entered the whole street was out of light. So we had his birthday dinner in the dark, followed by eating the M&M's cuppacakes by the streets. So Egyptian. lol.

Monday, June 30 2011, Pizza Hut, Mansoura.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 55mm

Tekka for lunch.

2011-06-27T23:53:00.002+02:00

Afterwards were not so great. Am having bad days lately, self-conflicted and also considering how time is passing by quickly. I hate regrets, screw it.

Monday, June 28 2011, Chicken Tekka, Mansoura.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 55mm

Then we hit the beach

2011-06-26T21:19:00.003+02:00

Friday, June 24, 2011, Nuwaiba/Taba Coastal-line, Egypt.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 18-135mm

14km, 1400 steps. I've conquered Mt Sinai

2011-06-26T11:11:00.004+02:00

Friday, June 24, 2011, Mt Sinai, Egypt.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 18-135mm

The Lunar Eclipse

2011-06-16T19:13:00.002+02:00

The moon was beautiful. Sadly it was the only serene thing lately. I'm a mess, miserable and depressed. Somebody save me?

Thursday, June 15, 2011, Rooftop, Ika & Syiel's House.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 18-135mm

Housewarming with the summer heat

2011-06-11T02:18:00.001+02:00

Thursday, June 10, 2011, Ika & Syiel's House.

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 55mm

skyping with bangla

2011-06-05T14:35:00.001+02:00

all ze way from kings village baby

He said, very adorable honey bee.

2011-06-05T04:21:00.007+02:00

Quick update:

Exams, tsk. Camwhoring as usual has been my way of keeping my sanity.
Is currently very happy, I quote hamizah & hekal: you're glowing, admit it, you're happy (they say slyly)
Needs to loose some pounds yo
Everyday I wish for my secret secret wish :)

I long to be somewhere exciting. what else is new, right?

This is for you beautiful.

2011-05-27T14:25:00.002+02:00

Ez, I just want to see you happy. So next time he goes hey you shouldddddd:

hehe ;)

The Football Tournament; Tomorrow's the quater finals.

2011-05-03T04:34:00.001+02:00

The School Trip

2011-04-16T21:12:00.003+02:00

Shots: Canon EOS 50D, with 18-135mm

Medic's Got Talent!: The Audition

2011-04-16T21:03:00.005+02:00

Thursday, April 14th, 2011, Hondusa Theater, Mansoura Univ.

Shots: Canon EOS 50D, with 18-135mm

Medic's Got Talent Meeting.

2011-04-12T19:51:00.003+02:00

(L-R)

1. Mantawy, 'Amr, Omar, Nabih, Helaly, Mado

2. Pansee, Nouran

3. Dina, Noran

4. Mado

5. Nazeera

6. Mizah

7. Helaly

8. Taha, Ayman, Mizah, Nazeera

Shots: Canon EOS 400D, with 50mm f/1.8 II

The Finals: Ali Gaber vs Mohamed Yousry Fekry

2011-04-12T03:12:00.006+02:00

And Mohamed won, finished off with a winning smile. I knew you can do it.

As for me, I had a bad night. Whats wrong with girl's nowadays?

Shots: Canon EOS 50D, with 55-250mm f/4-5.6 I

Squash Quater Finals

2011-04-11T03:45:00.002+02:00

I think spring is finally here. I dont need a coat to go out.

(1. Helaly 2. Miniature sets 3. Ali Gaber 4. Mohamed Yousry)

Have you met the Yousries?

2011-04-08T03:01:00.001+02:00

oh and Hekal.

Its been 2weeks since I came back. Or is it 3? Tonight it rained heavily with thunderstorm. So they say the weather's gonna be unpredictable after the supermoon, so I'm not surprised. What confuses me is my shadow.

Our last breakfast for this break.

2011-03-21T22:46:00.001+02:00

I miss you mother.

Two thumbs up!

2011-03-18T01:43:00.001+02:00

It rained.

2011-03-18T01:37:00.002+02:00

A LOOONNGGGGG UPDATE

2011-03-15T18:17:00.002+02:00

KANNA'S

2011-02-07T00:31:00.001+02:00

baby sitting and birthday dinner

2011-02-07T00:23:00.001+02:00

Bubba Gump with the lovely Eza and wannabe chinese

2011-02-07T00:16:00.001+02:00

kebarangkalian saya ada adik adik baru?

2011-02-07T00:13:00.000+02:00

bbq with cousins

2011-02-07T00:05:00.001+02:00

seafood at jeram

2011-02-07T00:03:00.001+02:00

shrimp hunting.

2011-02-06T23:58:00.001+02:00

with azri, so random. but am now in love with shrimps, screw you azri!

Rabbena Ma2ak Ya Masriin

2011-01-30T14:45:00.003+02:00

Egypt's Turmoil. Please help them regain peace soon, please save my loved ones :'(

Demamlah, &*()#$%^&!

2011-01-14T21:31:00.001+02:00

Exam time, pffft

2011-01-10T05:45:00.001+02:00

eyebags pun berjela, insomniac summore. sabar jela.

Tell me what's your new year's resolution?

2010-12-31T17:38:00.001+02:00

Goodbye 2010, despite of all the bitterness and hardship, it mature & strengthens me. I'm then blessed with love and friendship. I guess sometimes you just need to fall to value the things that comes. Here's to another 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days, 8,760 hours, 52,600 minutes 3,153,600 seconds of struggle, growth, progress & experience.

Happy New Year Everyone. Esp to my families & friends. ♥ from Egypt

2010-12-26T09:30:00.004+02:00

IT WAS A DONUT-ESSFUL DAY!

School trip

2010-12-26T05:04:00.004+02:00

OMELETTE DU FROMAGE

2010-12-25T03:28:00.000+02:00

Because I am Superman

2010-12-24T03:17:00.005+02:00

*gambar sekadar gambar hiasan

Woke up worried bout lelin and end up with parenting 101.
Lunch at GMN as usual. No nice chicken, grr.
Operation donut #2, last night's was not satisfactory. Operation was a success, we had a good sale! Congratz beoble!
Running about delivering our sugarcoated donuts, end up sweating in winter.
Dinner in Pizza Hut with the Yousry-ies.
When I am busy lah ramai nak kurang kasih sayang pulak kan??
Off to GMN for dinner with Moataz & Omar. Hot soup in winter is AMAZING.
Not so shocking news. But somewhat bothering me till now.
Omar's surprise birthday he had to attend was pushed back, so we all went to Expresso. I dig the music in Mattuz's car. The road was JAMMED UP. MANSOURAH JE KOT. NAK LAWAN MALAYSIA PULAK KE? We finally found a parking space. Expresso was so much fun, walaupun saham punya meter turun kepada tanda merah, but its okay. We were laughing our ass off. I repeat, SO MUCH FUN. I was high on god knows what -,-
Head home, passed by Mantawy's car. Picked up donut cutter at Nazeera's and back home. Now have to add more worry. Donut sales for tomorrow & saturday.
Should be sleeping considering I have to be up super early, but :(

Donuts 101

2010-12-23T11:22:00.002+02:00

1. Mix yeast, shortening, eggs, sugar, flour, milk, water.
2. Knead and put in greased bowl. Let dough rise for 30 mins
3. Roll out the dough and cut them with a donut cutter.
4. Deep fry and choose your topping.

2010-12-23T11:18:00.000+02:00

I STILL COULDN’T UNDERSTAND WHICH PART OF SCREAMING MY NAME ON TOP OF YOUR LUNGS CONTINUOUSLY IN THE RESTAURANT WHILE I WAS DOING SOMETHING AND WHEN I TOOK TIME OFF TO ENTERTAIN YOU SO THAT YOU WILL STOP SCREAMING IT WAS JUST SO THAT YOU CAN TELL ME I’M FAT. WHAT FRIEND DOES THAT? YEAH I CAN LAUGH IT OFF, IF YOU TELL ME NICELY. ITS NOT OKAY TO JUST DO THINGS TO ME JUST BECAUSE EVERYONE THINKS I’LL JUST LAUGH IT OFF. DO I HAVE A SIGN THAT SAYS BULLY ME ON MY FOREHEAD?

Its Salmon, Like ze fish.

2010-12-18T13:07:00.002+02:00

Harini lambat pegi kelas walaupun bangun awal. Sebabnya tergetik nak cat kuku kaler pink. Eh, bukan pink, its Salmon girls, like the fish. Berusaha mengecat kuku kanan, nasib baik I terer :D As you can see that was what I wore to class tadi, bajet tegar la boleh nak pakai shirt je, ha kau sekali menggigil 3 jam. Sabar jela Sarah -,-

Speaking of sabar, how can a moment make me go all fluttery?

WHY SO COOL ONE?

2010-12-18T04:07:00.000+02:00

For all the 310 wishes (ye my blackberry is cool that way) on facebook, and numerous through other means, thank you

2010-12-10T06:52:00.002+02:00

What I miss most on this new year.

2010-12-07T00:01:00.006+02:00

Biarlah re-used photos pun, dah rindu, ni je gambar family latest, minus baby Anas. Paling rindu yang teramat: Tokche.

Kalau kat rumah semua bising2, esp now birthday season. Lepas tu kecoh2 buat bubur Asyuraa, oh nyamnyam. Cepatlah baik webcam, nak skype engan tokche.

To all the muslims out there, Salam Maal Hijrah. As Ibu kata, malaikat dah bukak buku baru, so let's betulkan out niat and make the best of our new year.

Si tembam di pagi hari.

2010-12-06T05:41:00.003+02:00

kecik kecik pandai skype. hidup zaman modern, rasa mcm I'm there. oh rindunya rumah :)

What I did on Black Friday

2010-11-28T05:19:00.004+02:00

So on Friday Shady invited us for the Christmas Bazaar. It was awesome (refer to title pls) although I didnt get my waffles (it was finished! Farah warned us, but I tried my luck anyways). Its like I was not in Egypt -.- Great friends, and delicious food. I miss christmas.

Then, we took the opportunity to watch Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows Part 1. Sebelum tu, makan lagi, memang I have to work on that Lipotransfusion that Ahmed Yousry and I had been talking about. Tapi the movie was awesome! Cepatla keluar Part 2

Siap dengan subtitle arab. Feel gila. Amacam, style kan sneak peek dia? Rakan-rakan, sila luangkan masa dan tgk cerita yang awesome ini. The best HP movie yet.

Random facts about me #4

2010-11-25T12:25:00.001+02:00

I am indecisive.

At picking a place to eat, choosing my wardrobe everyday (usually it takes a few changes and bundles of clothes on the floor), well you name it, when it comes to decisions, I suck. Its either I simply cant decide or there's factors that makes me like that (most common: money; esp shopping)

Unless its something I really want.

Last Night

2010-11-25T12:20:00.001+02:00

Ruba' Firakh & 050 (zero-khomsin) jamming session for today's event.

Tasya & Syiera's open house

2010-11-24T10:19:00.002+02:00

Delicious food, good laugh, even my first attempt to embrace my genes.

The night was followed by a movie night di rumah agam Farah Hanis & Saba.

Jeng jeng jeng, there is a part two!

2010-11-23T14:45:00.000+02:00

Si Budak Sakits.

2010-11-23T14:30:00.001+02:00

Yes Mejoh, although its about you this time, Shady and I are loving it. Teehee.

Random facts about me #3

2010-11-19T18:12:00.001+02:00

I really like my name, but I've always find it weird when its written: Sarah Othman. I find the S and the O looking extra big and it bugs me.

So I like my name written in capitals/ low caps, but i think if typed its gorgeous in capitals: SARAH OTHMAN. Tadaa! See, what did i tell u! its like BAM! transformed!

Raya di perantauan, Part 1 (honestly taktahu ada tak Part 2)

2010-11-19T06:09:00.001+02:00

Random facts about me #2

2010-11-19T05:59:00.002+02:00

I like to put -s to my word when I type. Yes this is applicable to facebook, blogging, bbm, chatting, etc. Pendek kata anything written lah. Since both my bahasa and english is crappy, who cares, I'll get things right by the time I graduate. As I write this all I can think of is poor tilong. Penat2 kerja Dewan Bahasa, anakanak sedara all like this.

Usually its yous, okehs, even hehehs. Ikut mood you knows. There you goes.

Byebyes!

Hello bloody streets vs Home

2010-11-18T21:02:00.003+02:00

Mansourah

Home sweet home.

Eid ul Adha 2010

Random facts about me #1

2010-11-18T17:54:00.003+02:00

Ok this is so inspired by pudds, but I wanna give it a try.

I've always wanted a tattoo. I used to be obsessed with Miami Ink (minus the obvious reasons of Ami James) And over the years Adik and I schemed in hoping it might be possible. One day we both came up with the idea maybe if we do it somewhere discreet (obviously) and not tempat wuduk. But alas, such brilliant idea were crushed, because every month we still have to mandi wajib.

I've always wanted something either at the back of my neck/ above my jeans line/shoulder blade/ on the arms. A chinese character, or sparrows flying.

So I've decided to stick to henna tattoo. Although I doubt there's any in Mansoura. Cairo then, hehehs

Eat, pray, heal.

2010-11-18T15:53:00.000+02:00

Dahab was amazing.

There is something beautiful about all scars of whatever nature. A scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed, done with.

2010-11-10T06:51:00.004+02:00

who thought i'll hear this again, and in 90210 despite everything, good memories. i hope you are as happy as i am now.

quote by Harry Crews

surprised birthdays, late night dinners and make-up sessions.

2010-11-06T11:04:00.005+02:00

Great night. I woke up with a bad headache so I'm eating breakfast. I'm totally a girl's girl now. Pika's Ketam Masak Lemak Cili Api was the bomb. I should totally learn, imagine if its udang. Nyam nyam.

And I agree with Naz that we need more friends. lol. I have midsem tomorrow so goodbye for now beautiful people!

How I started my morning.

2010-11-05T04:14:00.004+02:00

From Medical economics to: relationships, contract marriage, commitment, Malay rights, politics, Kelantanese, crazy theories about silly things and finally Winter break plans. In the end S, I cant sleep, even the headache was gone, grr.

Loved the song, the tune was very soothing.

Sorry for the Hiatus

2010-11-04T05:22:00.003+02:00

Hello world,

I'm back in Egypt, oleh itu rasa macam takda maknanya nak bercerita panjang lebar. Tapi walaupun mengantuk sgt lepas Subuh ni, dah tak tahan dah since lama tak update blog.

Since balik bumi Mesir tercinta ni, rasanya duduk in Mansoura sekejap je. Balik one week then Tilong & Tta came, along with Uncle Rahman, Adam, Mok Long, Ayah long (fuh ni baru family) and ahli Persatuan Sejarah yang lain. Since I have never been to Luxor/Aswan so i skipped class and joined them.

Mula-mula jumpa kat Alex, masa ada appointment dgn En Ishak. Even though I probably have been to Alexandria tons of time, I realise the stories are diff, this time, the Historical parts. Which is totally cool. Masa kecik study kat states, I was obsessed dgn class World History, jadi memang seronok sangat trip ni. Dahla ahli-ahli semua baya tokche and tokayah. I mean, those Bristish Safari Suits? Wow. Ok, dah lain pulak.

Back to my trip.

I took an overnight train to Aswan ( a first time, jadi sama jakun dgn adam, tsk). Aswan is so pretty, and panas! Right after we visited the high dam we went into our cruise: The Nile Jewel. Which sails off to Luxor and along the way we stopped by Edfu and Kom Ombo.

Tak larat la nak letak pictures here, sila rujuk fesbuk, oktengs.

Now I'm back in Mansoura and Midsem is in a few days (lupa lah dah cakap ke belum). Tapi petang-petang giat pegi Istaad sokong team bola, haha, takpe, masa bersenam. Sila doakan untuk exam ok?

To my family yang pergi menunaikan Haji, Semoga dimudahkan, dan mendapat Haji yang mabrur. Untuk bukan family jgk, biar semua dapat.

Selamat Malam

It's raining, all I wanna do is sleep.

2010-10-02T11:54:00.003+02:00

I was pretty much dead last night as I got home, and it sure was super hard to get up this morning.

Since I was in Shah Alam early I get to have breakfast with Ratab, who thinks I was totally pulling his leg when I said I was at the bus station already. Then he continuously kutuk me for being so dressed up for just a breakfast. Open houses weh! Its been ages, so we got to catch up over Roti Kosong & KFC (yes, mengarut betul)

Konon the girls wants to be at Farah's early, but spent the rest of the mornings on Izni's bed (rindu dah oh!), by the time we left it was 1pm already. But its good fun as always with the girls, although panas gila nak mati. I then crashed a open house, with Reza pulak tu (our plan to buy sepit2 got cancelled). Tambun's, all the way to nilai, but the food was nice!

I still have no mood to pack, ergh, and i totally forgot to do my visa. But at least Ayah dragged me out to do groceries tadi. Hati pula gundahgulana, why oh why God?

So we had a real conversation.

2010-09-29T01:15:00.005+03:00

A: I'm impressed by you.
S: Likewise.

I believe that God works in a funny way that we humans can't understand. So what's up this time?

Sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui segala rahsia langit dan bumi (Al-Hujuraat: 18)

Ja's

2010-09-26T04:23:00.000+03:00

2010-09-23T16:58:00.001+03:00

STALKERRRR!

whats your deal with my sister?

Sometimes suddenly it gets harder to breathe, then I remember, God's with me.

2010-09-23T00:40:00.004+03:00

"Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul. He breaks our heart to make us whole. He sends us pain so that we can be stronger. He sends us failure so we can be humble. He sends us illness so that we can take care ourselves. Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us"

Rabbi yassir wala tu 'assir Ya Karim, wahai Tuhan yang menghapuskan dukacita, hapuskanlah.

Family's Photo-shoot @ Tta's Open House.

2010-09-19T15:50:00.003+03:00

Another round of photoshoot because tya & ayah cik's family was not 'round on first raya. The food was great, not too good for the kain kebaya though, HAHA.

Aminah & Fatimah

2010-09-19T15:41:00.001+03:00

Fee's open house.

1st Syawal.

2010-09-19T15:33:00.000+03:00

And we meet the end of Ramadhan.

2010-09-09T02:24:00.009+02:00

Funny how as a kid, Ramadhan holds no meaning at all. The only thing we look foward for is the Raya shopping, the feeling of new clothes and shoes, fireworks, and of course duit raya!

Looking back now, I've come along way. And I have to admit, despite of all the stuff that happened, its the most wonderful Ramadhan I've experienced.

It has been painful, and heartbreaking. But now, I see it as God's way to pull me back to him. I was blessed to be given a chance to do my Umrah. The place where dreams come true, as Hamizah said. Amidst the tears comes the feeling of peace, the calmness that surrounds me. I know He's listening to me (He always does), and that's the closest I've felt to Him.

Ika talked about spiritual growth. Maybe it's not yet perfect, but as Shazanee said, I'm almost there (and also tt he is never wrong). But for this Ramadhan, I am contented. I managed to reach my goals (and it includes khatam quran), and another accidental one; It seems that my body tune to wake me up at 3am everyday, macam rezeki nak bagi Qiamullail. But no luck in getting LailatulQadr. Maybe next year, InsyaAllah.

Today's the last day, last night was my last terawih, and my last Qiamullail. Now, instead of all those I look for as a kid, I feel sad to be parted with this blessed month.

I'm not perfect (yes Shazanee, I'm not) but this year I'm blessed, and there's no way that those feelings can be put into words. And I hope for the feelings to stay.

It's yet another beginning after an ending.

Eid Mubarak everyone.

2010-09-03T15:26:00.001+02:00

“ Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too—even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

- Mitch Albom

lights, camera, vain-action.

2010-08-08T19:38:00.004+03:00

our batch's photoshoot, just for fun, yes because we have tons of free time. i was having a fever and was dead most of the time. but the pictures turn out great. takda muka budak sakit langsung, yes!

bising sangat sampai i doubt anyone hears anything. but it was fun, i love you girls ♥

Shakira, hands off my man!

2010-08-06T10:21:00.002+03:00

uisy marah ni!

Sepetang bersama Iznie

2010-08-02T20:40:00.000+03:00

Izza Idris' Wedding, flooded withTKC-ians

2010-08-01T23:36:00.000+03:00

MTV World Stage 2010

2010-08-01T08:34:00.000+03:00

kelik klate for work and bekwah

2010-07-31T08:31:00.000+03:00

hari facial, ain ada conjuctivitis and we watched street dance

2010-07-24T20:20:00.000+03:00

keker's farewell

2010-07-17T00:20:00.000+03:00

kebuluran at home

2010-07-16T14:36:00.001+03:00

leaving for keker's soon!

lingering around with shana

2010-07-16T14:34:00.000+03:00

this is breakfast.

2010-07-14T03:02:00.003+03:00

yesterday, i spoiled my nude flats with blood

2010-07-14T01:58:00.002+03:00

lowyat & jalan2 cari baju raya when I was fasting

2010-07-13T03:12:00.002+03:00

birthday lunch, no birthday boy : steamboat @ mine's

2010-07-13T03:05:00.002+03:00

tilong's & bafi's birthday

2010-07-13T03:01:00.002+03:00

Usher live in Malaysia

2010-07-08T18:04:00.002+03:00

the closing act was fabulous.

wind orchestra finals 2010

2010-07-05T21:21:00.004+03:00

Congratulations to the girls, you guys did a great job. Coming in 3rd ia not the end of the world, everyone thinks you deserve to win anyways. Lets show them what we are made of next year and steal the cup back!

the flight home

2010-07-05T00:28:00.001+03:00

p/s: imy k

Killing two birds with one stone and I ended up with a fever from all the heat

2010-06-30T16:55:00.003+03:00

Zahari & CY

My first Manchow Wok. and yes its yummy!

we were fighting but the sky was so blue

2010-06-30T00:20:00.000+03:00

haysam's secret visit & kuliyya tibb filled with blow-up clowns

2010-06-29T23:24:00.003+03:00

tasha and syira's farewell

2010-06-23T12:06:00.002+03:00

kuih sagu & bubur kacang

2010-06-21T04:02:00.004+03:00

Kuih Sagu
1. Rinse off the sago
2. Estimate amount of water depending on the sago and add sugar (depends on your liking) and bring to boil
3. Add the rinsed sago and still till it's sticky solid
4. Move it into a container and chill
5. Before eating: mix shredded coconut (steamed) with a bit of salt and cover the kuih with it.

Bubur Kacang
1. Boil kacanh hijau till it softens
2. Add in coconut milk, sugar, bit of salt and pandan leaves. Bring to boil.

fishtail braid at early am

2010-06-19T07:36:00.001+03:00

Inilah kerja saya bila bangun pagi-pagi buta. Oh, may I add, while yakking on the phone with Adik. K, sila komen.

I couldnt sleep back so what the heck. I even trimmed my bangs, and had a mini facial, lol. The video's good, but dont watch it n the morning, she's chirpy.

So. What do you think?

muka budak excited dapat tgk toy story 3

2010-06-19T03:12:00.000+03:00

double fillet o fish @McDs, something new i discover today.

this causes the commentary on my eyes. after exam treats

2010-06-13T22:40:00.003+03:00

p/s: yes, that is little kashah :)